Heck, since the cBox is kinda out of action now, I think I can rant on anything without the fear of anyone actually reading it and taking it seriously. Cause,hey, I don't think anyone takes me seriously.
My topic at hand is not to talk about that, I can leave it to some other times.
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Recently, I have made it a point to take the earlier bus that arrives at 6.40~6.50am.
The bus-stop is kinda a walk from my home so every morning, I have about 10 mins of free time to just think.
There are actually many things to think about. But most of the time, I just think about my :xing xiang:.
I know this may sound a bit metrosexual, but hey, at a age like this, who won't care about his image?
I will occasionally brush my hair with my fingers to make sure that "ok..not messy". I will make sure that the uniform covers the damn belt cause I am sure no one likes it.
I will straighten my attire, make sure I look neat but not nerdy. It's a trait thingy.
Then I will think about how am I going to express myself. I don't want to sound too profound, neither too shallow. It's tough to be in a balance.
Then I will leave my mind to rest, just like it drift off to other stuff, maybe work, maybe games, whatever. Then by that time, I will be at the bus-stop.
It is also recently now that I begin to really notice my surroundings. I mean, my mind literally opens.
I seem to absorb more and internalize more into that pea size head of mine.
Cool eh>
Maybe it is due to that uneventful experience I had with WT, I don't know, maybe it's influence from Marcus. I have also been noticing the other sex more often. Not that I watch porn or something, just that like :Hmm..Is she paying notice to me? Is she saying; What the f is that retard looking me for. Or..La Har Ma Xiang Chi Tian Er Rou or something like that.
haha..I can't say I don;t know here, cause I just really can;t.
You know. I have even told myself that if there is really such a thing called Karma or like Good goes to the Good, then let some girl approach me and strike up a conversation with me.
No, I am not a despo.
I just want to talk to someone. Someone else. I do have friends of the other sex, but I wonder how it really feels to be approach by someone alien and she actually talking you.
Ya, perhaps that I have the need to be fancied or loved?
Haha..Kinda naive.
The CTs are coming. The first paper starts next week and I am not the least bit intrigued. I don't care about the damn position anymore. I just want the bloody thing to be gotten over with. ...>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>