I think I'm getting too old for my age.
Yah..I hope this is normal, but I think I'm getting old. Mentally that is. If it is so physically, then I am screwed in NS.
I am sure why, but deep down, there is this feeling, this gut feeling that says "Hey. Ni Lao le".
Maybe it is a sign of maturity?
Haha.
Sometimes I really envy those who can take things as they come and just shrug it off like it's nothing. I don't think I can do that.
I am a sentimental person.
Maybe a bit too much.
I should be more hard.
Should I?
I don't know.
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I think the most unpredictable creatures in the world are mothers.
Ya. They fall under the catergory of "Women".
Hell has no fury like a woman's scorn. I hope I got the phrase right.
Earlier on I just got a scolding by my mum. Apparently, she is pissed that I had borrowed the camera from my Couz for too long. I will be going to return it tomorrow.
But sometimes I wonder, can't she just calm down and talk to me like I am not a thing but her "SON".
I don't know.
Look. I believe all of us are a handful when we were toddlers. We crawl here and there, we tip over vases, we blah blah blah.
But I think when parents say that we never grow up. I beg to differ.
It's their mindset that doesn't grow up. They still stubbornly have the thought that "Hey. This child here is like always. So immature."
Sometimes when we indeed are mature, they feel...Threatened?
I notice my mother getting more and more of a "control" person now. She wants me to report everything that goes around me now and then.
I think more trust between this mother and son is in order.
Maybe it's sense of insecurity. Or maybe she doesn't give in to the thought that her little boy has grown up.
I need my space.
I am sure she is not reading this. Heck.
I think that I just go out more often with my friends, she will hit the roof. Maybe even confiscate my phone.
Maybe I need to talk to her about this.
Ya.
My life's now is pretty much revolving around preparing for the damn CT.
A lot to catch up. Very little time as always.
You know how parents say "try harder" when you don't do well?
Ya. I think when they say "try harder", the encouragment is not just for you, it's for them as well.
Cause they will be trying harder to get you to study and get more tutors as well.
I think study should be a personal afffair. If you need someone to push you, then perhaps there is an issue here. There will be just that one time when you will have the urge or the guilt feeling to just open that book.
My points have been stated.
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