Balance. This moment lacks it.

.Hmm.
Ya.
Alright.
What the?
..

These are just of the "few" emotions that I have regarding the pressing issue at the
moment.
Ya.
I will just nick it as Project 6.
Ya.
Sounds bloody corny.

OK.
For those who have read the previous few issues, you should know what I am driving
at.
I hate to talk about this.
...
Project 6. Commence.

Like all projects, there are opposing views between the members.
I am torn between the 2 parts, let go or persist.
Right.
Hmm.
Ok.
Now.
I should stop this stammering.
OK.
I present the opposing side.
They say"
1. Give it up. She ain't gonna give a 2 cents damn about you.
2. Forget it la. She doesn't even treasure or treat you "well".
3. No. No.It's impossible between the both of you de.

Now, the optimistic front
They say"
1. Go ahead! You never know what may come right?
2. Try la! Even better, go buy flowers. =.=
3.You need to grasp the opportunity. You just never know what might come out of this.

Seriously and frankly, I am torn apart.
If I withdraw myself, I will be going with the opposing front.
If I just go ahead and jalan, then I will be making a mockery of the opposing front and
saying' Eh. I want to be optimistic cannot arh?!'.

But first.
I wish to extend my heartfelt (did I use this term correctly?) thanks you all my buddies out there, excluding Marcus, Wen Xiong and Glen.
And guess what? These 3 are the ones who are in the same class as me now. =.=
I want to thank the following:
They aren't arranged in terms of importance, I just remember them off hand.
Alex (biggest suprise..hc ppl also fall in love.)
Dena
Jev
Daphne
De Wei (suprise..suprise)
Jon

Ya.
Them
Thank you so much.
Now. Back to that issue.
Geez.
I hate it
My conclusion?
YA

I am officially throwing in the towel.
I feel that the 3 years difference, the rift, is just too deep.
She has changed a lot.
So have I .
There are somethings that are enigma to me in her.
There are some things that seem too queer to be her.
Times change
People change.
At least I still have her as a friend.
And as a friend, perhaps I will get her a present.
Just maybe la. Eh. Don' think too much into things ok.
I wonder who that wayne guy is though.
Lucky ass.
Hmm.
=.=''''''

Anyway.
I lead a new life now.
Ya. I hope so.
I am single..wait, I am all along single =.=''
Anyway, anyone who wishes to go out during the holidays..give me a ring.
I am dead bored.
OK.
New life.
New perspective.
And I am not emo.
I am getting kinda addicted to this look =.=
Lol

I just want to clarify some things.
It's not that I don't like to smile.
I do.
The 4 million smiles shit aside.
But personally, I don't like what I see in the mirror when I smile.
I look weird.
No.It's not that I have not smiled for a long time.
Give me 6K and I will smile the whole week for you. =.=
Alright.
So to "youknowho".
A big thankyou to your concern.
I heed your advice and hope that someday, some where, some one will like me for who
I am.
And I am not emo.
Period.