It always pours.

Frankly, I'm still rather amazed that I have the mood to actually settle down in front of the PC and blog. Other than the 2 souls, 2 rather unresponsive idiots, just to let you know(should you even give a damn), my grandma hospitalized.
I am just glad that it's not anything that life-threatening. She suffers from a hip fracture sustained from the carelesses of my pompous and egoistic Aunt(paternal side). However, as she's under some medication to make the blood thinner, as in more fluid-I think-, there seems to be somesort of complications to this rather urgent surgery. Maybe I am just making a mountain out of a mole-hill, but if your loved ones(touch wood) were to be admitted due to some unforseen circumstances, I am sure that you would be equally worried.
The doctor will only be available on Monday and if he gives the green light, then perhaps the surgery will take place on Wednesday.
But what seriously bothers me is what is actually happening to my grandpa. Yes, I do have the fortunate life of having grandparents of both sides to shower me with care, concern and yes the piece of paper with Ishak's face on it, but all that seems somewhat insignificant under this light.
My grand-dad suffers, all diseases make us suffer, from high blood pressure. You know that these type of people cannot actually be agitated for reasons that only require the intelligence of a 5 year old. I saw him pacing around the lobby of the hospital for 10 full minutes, then proceed to the ward to give my grandma a look, came out again, pace around. I mean, I don't actually grasp the crux of why he did so, but...
I..
never mind.
Then, I saw him weep. It's not that sort of wail that a baby gives but that kind of silent sobs.
That was the first time I saw him did so.
I must admit that I somehow felt digusted at myself.
My selfish attitudes.
My unforgiving nature to my relatives for their "oh so irritating" behaviours and antics.
My very unnerving concern over grades and actually shelved important family gatherings just to study a little more, do some questions a little more.
Grades do play an important role.
They decide your "future".
No. They decide how fat or skinny that monthly cheque is.
But they can't decide the relationship between families.
I will most probably be visiting my grandma on tuesday. There are, unfortunately so, some matters that require my attention tomorrow.
Adding to that, I am getting sick.
The feeling of tingling nerves- somewhat errie and forboding
The painful feeling of the nerves when they are pressed.
I think I am getting somesort of rhuemtoid artheritis or something.
Damn. I am too young for this.
Anyway, I just hope that the doctor would come to a safe conclusion real quick cause such ops shouldn't be dragged any longer.
Just like certain matters.